It's been a while...
Stuff has happened...
And stuff hasn't happened...
But one big thing happened. I had a repair done on my meniscus....
Back in August of 2011, I was in an evening rehearsal, and injured myself doing an inward turn down towards the floor. I heard a snap, but at the time I didn't know what it was...so I just hobbled my way home from rehearsal. I took a bit of time off from dance (but not much), but was back at it again, and going hard at it. I finally got an MRI and X-ray done and found out that I severely tore my meniscus (which I still dancing on before I found out that it was torn) My choices were to continue dancing with this set back, or talk to an orthopedic surgeon.....so I spoke to a surgeon, and set up an appointment to have the scope done...after dancing for a year on it.
And this is what they did (1 day after)... and yes it hurt...
I wasn't able to bear any weight on my left leg, which meant I was on crutches for about 5 weeks.
The pain killers made me sick and had me vomiting in the middle of the night, so I stopped taking them.
Totally not what I was expecting, which left me with so many mixed emotions of guilt, sadness, and frustration. It wasn't that I couldn't dance, but the simple things that I could do on a daily basis were taken away from me, which made me dependent on others (hence the feelings of guilt). But I have to say my family is the best. They have been there for me from the beginning and for that I am forever grateful.
Drawing from my nieces and nephew...
2 months later, I am able to walk. No dancing yet though. I experience a bit of pain here and there, but it's much better. I've got about 4 more months of recovery to go, which is what I figured.
It's actually been good to be able to take myself out of 'dance' for a minute. Stepping away from things has given me a chance to really identify what's important to me, and what I want for my life, and what my purpose is. Which can actually be very fulfilling (to me at least - especially at this stage in my life ;).
I'll be back on dance floors soon...with a refreshed mind and different outlook on things....
Thank you those who have checked in on me and continue to do so..it means more than you know.
lots of love...
tash
